New lease of freedom.

Finally left that shit hole, but my brothers were unsecured now, I don't blame them, if they want they could head home as soon as possible :) but I'm not going back ever again after spending so many hours packing.

Thinking of renting Jingyi's room. But living tgt seems weird. Oh wells imma gna sleep now, today's been a really long day!

do things my way.

studying @ nic's place.

To prove my point abt th whole attending school thing,

I didn't went to school today. Instead, i head to work. Intended to study before and after work, but i was not very early, so no time. I studied during break. Other than a few ppl asking what am i doing, everyth was (Y).

Studying is suppose to be fun. Adults just make us hate it by forcing us to excel and all -__- i believe everyone have curiousity in them. Etc, i'm curious how (chinese) idioms come about. most idioms, if you split th word one by one, you can get th meaning even though you nv seen th idiom before. SERIOUSLY. then, english... let me think... checking dictionary for unknown vocab is pretty interesting and books - novels / comics / mangas = love. ^^ maths you just get th thrill when you solve a damn hard qns. -.-! many people enjoy it, me too. but most of th time i'd refuse to try and solve in th first place. I HATE NUMBERS. science is like in everyday life and myself so learning new things is really amazing. like yknw what th hell is in yr body or someth. history, you learn someth abt th past and those things. but most of th time, i'm not interested. yea. :/

Kthxbye, so many points. i'm heading to bed.
Work - study - Work - study @ nic's place today tire me out happily :)

Ohya, great coincidence! Bumped into Edwin @ 188 bus stop today otw to work.

........previously bumped into him @ 985 bus stop, he alight at driving centre while i alight at my school bus stop. then, i board 188 to find that he board 188 too. ain't fate fun?

Time is not getting wasted, I'm getting wasted

i don't see a point in living,
but i can't die either.

God screwed my life, or rather, th society did.
I can't do what i want to, i'd to do what IT wanted me to do.
which i don't enjoy one bit.

Fuck. This. Shit. Srsly.

Year 2010 - Coach Michael's farewell dinner @ Lot One Pizzahut
Year 2008 when we get into zonals w senoirs. I miss basketball, i really do. :(

It stills come as a shock, no more trainings. Wtfuxxx -__-

Education ain't everyth.

Ohmygod, Blogger finally had more variety of fonts, I shall forever stay faithful to Blogger! I promise i'll post at least once a week in return for all those fonts ^^ i mean, LOOK. it makes blogging much more fun and exciting~ so currently i'm using Coming Soon & Crafty Girls. sweeeeeeeeet, i'm so excited. i can't wait to explore all da fonts!

So yuppzxc, i shall half study and work myself. I'll be independent. Cause i really can't stand those teachers in school and how everyone got brainwashed that education is damn bloody impt. I see all my friends frowning and losing freeedom all over O's, every single day they'd be burying their heads in books/notes. And it's only O level.

Yes, everyone would say i'd confirm regret not studying in th future. I don't know what holds in th future for me, but iknw that i'd like to have fun while i'm young and still have an able body. Just imagining myself studying since Kindergarten, Primary school, Secondary school, Poly/JC, University - graduate and get a job OR further studies and get higher degree and then proceed to look for a high-paying-but-also-slogging-my-guts-out job. I don't think i want my life like that.

I want to look back 20yrs later and laugh at myself for doing someth stupid and cry at th thoughts of friends and th time spent together, ah.... that's life. I fight for what i believe in and for a better future. Yknw, our ancestors got so far w/o fantastic education either. In fact, technology is improving and th society are changing so much that i think it's driving th older generation up th wall. They lose their comfort zone and ability to communicate w th younger generation! whatthehell.

PS/ There's two side to a coin i guess, & you've yr idea and i'd mine. As long as you don't try to brainwash me, i'm fine w wteva you believe in, and respect you. :)

Which path should i take?

I've been half-awake for continously 2days @05.15am w th feeble intention of attending school, can you believe it? but in th end, i didn't attend even though i was awake. esp today, i can't get back to sleep and i end up re-reading 3 or 4 books borrowed from th library -_- th aspect of going to school, getting ignored by those people and 'guailan' by some others , is totally unappealing.

er, wait, guailan is a harsh word. but idk what to use. verbally fighting, teasingly? geddit? O_O it was fun, but somehow not enough for me. as in, it's often but not always. i need someth more consistent.

wteva~ but since during last match's (w Dunman High) debrief when coach says no more trainings, it strucked me. what am i gna do?! faggotzxc. i realised i'm lost. no more expectations to live up to, no more torturous running, no more losing fats and building stamina and most importantly, NO MORE FUN. life's boring. you can't believe how happy i am just by reading books and doing exercise in assessment books that only contains fiction nowadays -__- (me adore fantasy, fairytales, magic and happy ending like every lil' innocent girl)

and everyday, i'm just daydreaming abt th day when i finally moved out w my brothers. where we begin our new life, of course not forgetting momma. but then again, it's daydream.

First step.

I think i must really hate my past or post, idk how many times i've deleted and re-created blogs. I really should kick this bad habit.

gna find some steady buddies to head out and study, CAUSE I REALLY CANNOT FOCUS AT HOME. I can't believe how many things i hafta catch up -__- it feels like world ends now, faggot.